As I walked into work today, I passed a limping man. My mind had been mulling over the list of horrific things I have to inflict today. Also the number 132.5 months rolls in my head a lot. But those thoughts stopped when I realized that I passed this limping man. Several other people passed him and he just plowed along…slowly.
I recall myself in that same situation, same stretch of sidewalk, 2-3 weeks ago. So I wondered to myself was he mad people were passing him, was he thinking all the ‘FAST’ walkers don’t appreciate the fact that they can just ‘walk’. It wasn’t Deja Vous. It was more a wake up call about the fact, I wasn’t appreciating the fact that I was walking fairly normally. There is some background aches, and a flair up now and then but I am so used to that I don’t gnerally notice.
But noticing that all the time I was limping along, my thoughts turned to the simple fact that we dont give a quick nod to the simple things we do…until we can’t do them. We dont stop to smell the flowers.
I practiced Martial arts for the first time this year last weekend. I did Jiki Shinkage Ryu Kenjutsu on Saturday, and then Shindo Muso Ryu Jo early Sunday morning. My ankle was hurting but I did what I could and if it hurt, I stopped. But doing that put everything into a sharp focus. Where were my feet? How was I going to move next? Will moving hurt? Will I show my opponent that I am hurt? It was one of the better, if not most painful, training I have done in a long while.
Several people asked if maybe I shouldnt train. Well even the hurting parts weren’t crippling, but there was a more important point. If I didn’t train, my head would explode. I am not going to make any stoke jokes here, but beyond the physical need, there is a slipping mental focus that is slowly going back to all my old bad habits. My eating habits are dropping in the can again, It has been a while since I sat in at a weight Watchers meeting and surprise! my 35 pounds I lost is slowly creeping back. I really do need it to stay lost, maybe crate it up and ship it off to Madagasgar, or Tazmania.
It is on the edge of that depression that I watched that man limping along today. Then I thought “If we dont stop and smell the roses, what do Roses do?” Do they sit and watch, waiting for people to come by and stop? And if people do stop, do the roses say to themselves “Move along dude, you stink”.
-GG






